30-05-2015
Has been a strange day, have been over with family, for the weekend, usualy Saturday score, a visit to China Town , and Dim Sum, at the Joy King Lou.Went for a walk about town, ended up at Piccadilly Circus, JAne decide to recreate a photo we took, nearly 10 years, on a trip up from Taunton.
Jane decided to recreate the above photo, oh so many claim I am oh so different nowaday's, what do you think?
OK, Connies taller, my hairs longer????
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22-05-2015
Again, emotions are getting oh so confusing, oh god I love Jane, no idea where I would be without her, but, I oh so need some emotional strength, some emotional responce, I have no idea exactly how she feel, yes she'll lie with me, but she won't touch me, allow me to touch her, she won't hug or kiss me, with out me saying/doing anything, god I wish I had some where to go to, I can't run away to family, they're ok about me visiting, but not about me staying there. My main priorty is still getting a job, because then, I will have the cash to get my own place, the space to investigate to the real me, the feminine I really am, yes I know S was oh so correct in that I should of left Jane before hand, but, I also know I would not of been able to make this journey withought her. She is also oh so scared of investigating her lesbian side, oh so wish she would realise, that it is society that decides our sexuality, why should we question who we love, if we can obtain that higher emotional level with some body, why should we be bothered what their gender is, same as why should we be scared of out inner selfs?
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20-05-2015
Is one of those day's again, everything is oh so screwed up again, emotionaly that is. Am thinking of a certain guy, nothing emotional, purely physical, but that is the crazy part, still no major sensations, will I ever orgasm, will I ever get truly aroused, things are oh so confused for me.
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13-05-2015
Been a busy girl, out skating?
Nearly gone that final stage with G, again, before, too tight, this time no lube, am getting oh so desperate to feel a man within, yet, I know, won't have full sensation, yet?
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09-05-2015
Am entering this now, for this weekend, have Cav Mem again tomorrow, the first for this woman, am oh so scared, will the family still accept me? Bringing Simone too, her dad was in the Regiment, in Palestine, backin '47, for the creation of Israel, see how things go?
Wasn't able to get back to you till today, had an awesome day, no VSC this year, S loved being back to her dad's regiment, they appeared to love her too, good. Anyway, there you have me ready to form up, then marching off, first squad of were the Lancers, gossiping and bimbling, not actualy paying attention to the moment, but what do you expect, they were the Light Brigade, and we were the Heavy Brigade? need I say more?
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05-05-15
Been an interesting day, had to go to Job Centre, over in Hammersmith, to see about a telephone number, to phone Belfast, to get a copy of a letter to say I was receiving JSA, from there I had to go the Gender Clinic, to get a copy of any letter, to state that had received treatment for Gender Dysmorphia, while there, got chatting to a woman, a Genetic Girl, that was there with her Son, his first sesssion on the long road, to becoming the woman they were to be. F has a girlfriend, that at the moment is fully aware of everything, F's mum S, then told me about their background, F's dad was RAF, but he joined up a year after my dad got out.
Back to Chingford, just in time for C's usual trip around the corner for karate, but this time I was joining her, not just sitting there and watching, but taking part.
Difficult part is, am getting old, can no longer move in the way I used to, getting oh so tired, oh so quickly, glad I have taken up my other sport too. skating, or else I would be oh so dead, oh so quickly.
But hey, body oh so needs re-educating about muscular needs, people oh so don't realise how much bodies are changed by our HRT regimes, but hey, am a happy person now?
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