04-01-2017
First post of the year, was at Whips today, final Checks, before admission in 2 weeks time, can you believe it, a fit bitch like me, with a Dodgy Heart? Had it since birth apparently, but, still got it, will be having an Aortic Valve Replacement, I had a choice of 2 procedures, the one I've chosen, will mean no further treatment, for a further 16-20 years, other procedure, will entail a life of drugs, and a further replacement in 5-6 years? So I think I may of decided on correct procedure, but am oh so papping myself, so in 2 weeks time, tomorrow, am off to Barts, for less than a week, followed by 1-2 weeks doing nothing, Doctors Orders??? is bad enough now, but in 2 weeks time, being unable to do anything, but after that, am oh so getting out on my bike, skating, hard core on the Ice?
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Wednesday, 4 January 2017
Monday, 26 December 2016
31:12:2016
Well, another year gone by, no idea why, but would love to get in touch with my Besty, From Paderborn, yes Paderborn in Germany, had some excellent years out there, with a lovely Woman, no not GF, Liebe Got, the best friend a woman could ask for, even though, I wasn't a woman then, but she understood?
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Well, another year gone by, no idea why, but would love to get in touch with my Besty, From Paderborn, yes Paderborn in Germany, had some excellent years out there, with a lovely Woman, no not GF, Liebe Got, the best friend a woman could ask for, even though, I wasn't a woman then, but she understood?
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Thursday, 8 December 2016
08-12-2017
Well we are getting closer to the end of yet another year, this time am oh so screwed up, since I lost the Mountain bike, somehow, have lost oh so much, mentally, as if the last 2.6 have never happened, just dribs and drab's, somehow, I can't remember ever making love to J, I can't remember the main event of losing Virginity, remember first part of evening, and afterwards, but not the actual main event, am losing memories of other things too, is as if those 2 weeks in the induced wiped event's, yes, am now due to get an op on my heart, can you believe it, turns out you are more likely to need a heart op when your fit, than when your unfit, but am still oh so scared, J&C have been unbelievable, but, my physical side (Sexual Needs) is strange, is as if have never made love Post, J claims she won't, because of strain on heart, the one guy, I have been with, I can remember pre and post the event, but not the actual event, is as if have had no physical contact in over 2 year's, is oh so screwing my head up, is made worse buy J's response, but she does love me, so see's me more as her partner, than anything else, if she wasn't with me, she wouldn't be with any other woman , can't remember anything either, keep forgetting things, basic things, like the names of the girls over in Supermarket, I can't stand this?
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Well we are getting closer to the end of yet another year, this time am oh so screwed up, since I lost the Mountain bike, somehow, have lost oh so much, mentally, as if the last 2.6 have never happened, just dribs and drab's, somehow, I can't remember ever making love to J, I can't remember the main event of losing Virginity, remember first part of evening, and afterwards, but not the actual main event, am losing memories of other things too, is as if those 2 weeks in the induced wiped event's, yes, am now due to get an op on my heart, can you believe it, turns out you are more likely to need a heart op when your fit, than when your unfit, but am still oh so scared, J&C have been unbelievable, but, my physical side (Sexual Needs) is strange, is as if have never made love Post, J claims she won't, because of strain on heart, the one guy, I have been with, I can remember pre and post the event, but not the actual event, is as if have had no physical contact in over 2 year's, is oh so screwing my head up, is made worse buy J's response, but she does love me, so see's me more as her partner, than anything else, if she wasn't with me, she wouldn't be with any other woman , can't remember anything either, keep forgetting things, basic things, like the names of the girls over in Supermarket, I can't stand this?
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Saturday, 3 December 2016
03-12-2012
got a date for op, was going to say finaly, but can't say that, as got it after first visit pre-op finalisation, 6/7 weeks time, and I shall be a fully paid up member of the Zipper Club, next prob is, when are they going to give me Cranio Surgery too, never did anything by halves, did I. Oh so hope, meds are reduced too, I mean, 13 a day?
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Saturday, 26 November 2016
30-11-2016
Finally just seen "The Danish Girl", a very powerful film, also describes some of the hell we must face, to be the women we were meant to be, is the complete opposit to what oh so many think, that we just want to have intercourse with men, if this was so, why is it oh so many of us are lesbians??
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Finally just seen "The Danish Girl", a very powerful film, also describes some of the hell we must face, to be the women we were meant to be, is the complete opposit to what oh so many think, that we just want to have intercourse with men, if this was so, why is it oh so many of us are lesbians??
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Wednesday, 23 November 2016
23-11-2016
OMG, just had an amzingly scary day, popped into a, to use the ladies, as I stepped out of the Cubicle, there was a Man stood there, accusing me of being a Male, he forced me back into the cubicle, on to the toilet, fore arm across my throat, I tried to get my mobile out of pocket, he realised I was up to something, managed to change to left hand, tried to activate record, unable too, forced to put into other pocket, he realised upto something, all the while, he had forearm across throat, attempting to choke me, J soon appeard in Toilets, this guy panicked got up, I was quickly stood between him and J, again blocked his attacks, he then moved out of toilets, to be joined by somebody else, all the while, hurling transphobic abuse at me, he was joined by another, again, shouting abuse, then by a third, who at first appeared to pulling them away, he then continued abuse, I was able to force them out of toilets, then sat down against toilet door, quickly asked J if she was still recording, controller the told J to ensure phone stayed switched on, J was still on it till police arrived, I asked first female to lower jacket, to show number, she did, I released door, after a while , we left bar, up from other police, with said perp, we saw them putting cuffs on him, had an oh so stressfull day, another idiot going down, he'll soon discover how horrible anal really is, unless you really want it, like it??
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OMG, just had an amzingly scary day, popped into a, to use the ladies, as I stepped out of the Cubicle, there was a Man stood there, accusing me of being a Male, he forced me back into the cubicle, on to the toilet, fore arm across my throat, I tried to get my mobile out of pocket, he realised I was up to something, managed to change to left hand, tried to activate record, unable too, forced to put into other pocket, he realised upto something, all the while, he had forearm across throat, attempting to choke me, J soon appeard in Toilets, this guy panicked got up, I was quickly stood between him and J, again blocked his attacks, he then moved out of toilets, to be joined by somebody else, all the while, hurling transphobic abuse at me, he was joined by another, again, shouting abuse, then by a third, who at first appeared to pulling them away, he then continued abuse, I was able to force them out of toilets, then sat down against toilet door, quickly asked J if she was still recording, controller the told J to ensure phone stayed switched on, J was still on it till police arrived, I asked first female to lower jacket, to show number, she did, I released door, after a while , we left bar, up from other police, with said perp, we saw them putting cuffs on him, had an oh so stressfull day, another idiot going down, he'll soon discover how horrible anal really is, unless you really want it, like it??
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Monday, 21 November 2016
02-11-2016
Ah well, 2nd to last step tomorrow, off back to St Barts, final checks before am going in, re op on heart, so you see, not a Heartless Biatch, Tuesday, off to Barts, as far as I know, oh so scared?
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