29-08-2014
Am back from Haven, was an awesome week, my first week as a woman, anywhere.

As I said the other day, general response from the crew down there, amazing, all completely amazing, had an incident today, was waiting to get on Bungies, with C, was having a laugh with some kids C's age, they turned and asked if I was C's Mum, Aunty?
Made me feel well good, kids are honest, if they thought I was a Trans, they would of asked, but instead treated me like the woman I really am?

Was finally able to grab some piccies, weather was damn wet, before anybody say's it, I know I need to lose some weight, but am nervouse about stomach exersises at the mo, so done't want to rupture anything below??





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26-08-2014
Second day at Haven, Big A had told quite a few here about Op, but not all. Have received an amazing response from everyone, M, was A in Easter, but she's shortened her name now, didn't know, but looks happy at the idea, if only, met her GF last night, K, lovely girl, shouldn't expect anything less with M, the rest of the funsters have been awesome too, Met L from last year, her daughters won the talent contest with C, different age groups, was in Toilets, she walked up to me 'Your  C's dad', slight mistake but I let her off, she recognised me straight off, C met up with her girls later on, but was nice to me et up with others again. In lounge at Mo, good thing about being an Owner, we get things like this?




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24-08-2014
Things getting pretty screwed again, for me, Missing N, I know, but am having oh so much new emotions to screw my head up. Thought I hadx shown N my 'Friends', but apparently I had not, so here we go N, just for you??

smaller is 2.5cm, larger 3cm, given up on smaller, as was told I would, so only use larger?






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21-08-14
Things are oh so Screlled, yes I told N we couldn't go on, but love him too much, can't go on with out him, is oh so difficult for me though, first and foremost, I still love J and C, always will, but she is making thing's oh so difficult for me. Off to parents today, to get train tomorrow, to get to Taunton. he problem is, that although physically I have no sensation yet, emotionally, I need to make love, he knows he can't penetrate yet, but he, well he's male, so would never say no to fun and games, but he does have K to worry about too, sounds harsh, but nothing will happen, until she is gone, I can't do that, screw a guy, while his dying wife is there , if she survives, brilliant, but no N&A, I am such a screlled Biatch??



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12-08-2014
Have just come to a major realisation, have had to tell N that we cannot go on, it would mean I would lose J, she has stood by me, been my rock, I so don't want to lose her, or C, so, if you thought I was after my cake and eating it, maybe you were right. He was offering me something I felt I would never have, for me to continue on with that life, I would of have to lose the most important thing in my life, and no, I so do not want to lose them.




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11-08-2014
back out in Chingford, had an interesting chat with N, Via text, I think he just tried to ask me to marry him? I'm still married to J, K is still around, as lovely as it sounds, we have barely known each other 2 months. as lovely as he is I don't think he is ready yet?




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09-08-2014
Am over at the RBKC, decided to go see parents, locals finished, so had to go see that, with all the changes, S is back, from last year, she's a giggle, another new girl, W? wouza. We decided to do something not done since pre-op, went for a chinese lunch, Dim Sung, H, head waitress was there again, told her about op, she's impressed, then, again, as per usual with her, gay dar goes into over drive, I so would not say no to her?



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07-08-2014
Was with N again today, only a quick drink, he only had an hour, again he quickly put me at ease, chatting about anything, we only had time for one drink, I was meeting J at Childrens Museum. Then as we left, had a quick peck outside the pub, N said no to anything more, then as we walked back to Liverpool ST, we stopped where it was quiet, he grabbed me, we turned, WE KISSED? God did we kiss? I t was one of those magic moments, one of those awesome moments, it was unbelievable?



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05-08-2014
Have just been to see Mr B again, for what could be my visit, I was always scared that he was going to use speculum on me, he did today, god what was I scared for, it only felt like a Dilator. H e di notice that I had had some Granulation(?) whatever that is, he did say that if it didn't go with 4 weeks, to go back. so it is either goodbye to G and Mr B, or I have to go back for a 5 min visit, I querid his Nurse about Boss at GIC, and voice op, she's going to sort an appointment for me at my next to GIC.

















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