29-07-2014
Well, things are very intersting now, D, that guy that was initially going to make me a woman, finally contacted me, today, do I still go for him, or do I go for N. with D, it will be oh so rough, we both started out with the Dragoons, in the Black Horse? But N, he is oh so such a gent, might'n I be his bit of Rough?
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Tuesday 29 July 2014
Sunday 27 July 2014
27-07-2014
Oh god, am in a right state. The man I first booked, to introduce me to hetero sex, has returned, no say so, as to where he was, I so hope he was OK out in Afghan, but at the same time, N, we are both attracted to each other, but, he has a wife, a wife that is dying, I so hate this, it was one thing, in my previous life, to get involved with a wife, while her husband was away on exercise, tour, totally different to get involved with a man, as a woman, when his wife is dying. Am so hating this, as it so means doing the dirty on Jane, and that is the last thing I want, I so love that woman, but, is oh so bloody difficult, until she responds to me as a woman, this is oh so difficult for me.
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Oh god, am in a right state. The man I first booked, to introduce me to hetero sex, has returned, no say so, as to where he was, I so hope he was OK out in Afghan, but at the same time, N, we are both attracted to each other, but, he has a wife, a wife that is dying, I so hate this, it was one thing, in my previous life, to get involved with a wife, while her husband was away on exercise, tour, totally different to get involved with a man, as a woman, when his wife is dying. Am so hating this, as it so means doing the dirty on Jane, and that is the last thing I want, I so love that woman, but, is oh so bloody difficult, until she responds to me as a woman, this is oh so difficult for me.
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Monday 21 July 2014
21-07-2014
Was out, with a local schools Carnival yesterday, where J works, C was there with her Cus?we we were walking all around from Leyton Cricket ground, to Leyton Cricket Ground, a 5km walk, I say walk, but in reality was a 5km Dance, music blasting out was some Old School Reggae. Got chatting to another of the siblings there, with her Girlfriend? so obviously we never got on, much, they denied being lesbian, but bi? anyway, we got, F was well sexy, with oh shake-able butt, A, was more refined, cuddly. F claimed she was going to call me, but as yet, she hasn't??
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Was out, with a local schools Carnival yesterday, where J works, C was there with her Cus?we we were walking all around from Leyton Cricket ground, to Leyton Cricket Ground, a 5km walk, I say walk, but in reality was a 5km Dance, music blasting out was some Old School Reggae. Got chatting to another of the siblings there, with her Girlfriend? so obviously we never got on, much, they denied being lesbian, but bi? anyway, we got, F was well sexy, with oh shake-able butt, A, was more refined, cuddly. F claimed she was going to call me, but as yet, she hasn't??
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Saturday 19 July 2014
19-07-2014
Well, what can I say, I don't think me and J can no longer stay together, her refusal to accept the lesbian life, my confusion about what I am, she will never accept anybody else, no body will be able to replace her for me, but I oh so need somebody, because until I do, I will never be able to insert them correctly.
Then there's the added pressure, of this guy, am I lesbian, am I straight, until I have one or the other, I will never know, but J will go with me, I know, we could just go back to the way things were, but, even she said it won't be like that, afterwards, no its not, is less?
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Well, what can I say, I don't think me and J can no longer stay together, her refusal to accept the lesbian life, my confusion about what I am, she will never accept anybody else, no body will be able to replace her for me, but I oh so need somebody, because until I do, I will never be able to insert them correctly.
Then there's the added pressure, of this guy, am I lesbian, am I straight, until I have one or the other, I will never know, but J will go with me, I know, we could just go back to the way things were, but, even she said it won't be like that, afterwards, no its not, is less?
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Sunday 6 July 2014
06-07-2014
Just had an awesome Saturday, pick up C from her Saturday school. We were due to pick her friend T, up from her Nana's, to go to Jubilee park, but, got chatting with M, her nana, outside her flat. While we were chatting, T's mum T, stook her head out of the one of the windows to the flat, I suggested she comes down to look at 'That' photo of 'Him', M decided we should all go up, we did, that was just after 3? during the rest of the day, T sister's J and her 2 boy's turned up, then T's mate A. After a while, was strange, my Gaydar was flaring, no, can't be T's mum T, as I had no alerts while we were alone, not her sister, so only left A, but no, not going to say anything again, she seemed confident in her sexuality. But then, she admitted, she had had a lesbian affair once. Shi'it, at times my Gaydar is too damn sensitive. During the afternoon, T told me A is a beautician, and wanted to make me over, cut my hair, the works, so we agreed we would have a Girly Night sometime, C would love it, so she could get girly with younger T, have the sleep over she wante, I could get what I haven't had the pleasure of yet, a Girly.
Been talking indirectly to J, about N, all she'll accept about him, is March, so thankfully that answers that question, maybe, am not as lesbian, as I thought, but as I was thinking, maybe more Pan??
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Just had an awesome Saturday, pick up C from her Saturday school. We were due to pick her friend T, up from her Nana's, to go to Jubilee park, but, got chatting with M, her nana, outside her flat. While we were chatting, T's mum T, stook her head out of the one of the windows to the flat, I suggested she comes down to look at 'That' photo of 'Him', M decided we should all go up, we did, that was just after 3? during the rest of the day, T sister's J and her 2 boy's turned up, then T's mate A. After a while, was strange, my Gaydar was flaring, no, can't be T's mum T, as I had no alerts while we were alone, not her sister, so only left A, but no, not going to say anything again, she seemed confident in her sexuality. But then, she admitted, she had had a lesbian affair once. Shi'it, at times my Gaydar is too damn sensitive. During the afternoon, T told me A is a beautician, and wanted to make me over, cut my hair, the works, so we agreed we would have a Girly Night sometime, C would love it, so she could get girly with younger T, have the sleep over she wante, I could get what I haven't had the pleasure of yet, a Girly.
Been talking indirectly to J, about N, all she'll accept about him, is March, so thankfully that answers that question, maybe, am not as lesbian, as I thought, but as I was thinking, maybe more Pan??
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Wednesday 2 July 2014
03-07-2014
Before, was purely about me on here, but now, is getting oh so complicated, am meeting up with S later, for a coffee, my first real lesbian fancy bit, even though we never really kissed, or anything more, but she has been a fantastic friend. Tomorrow, am meeting with N again for a drink, down at Spitalfields, Spooky that Biatch Sue worked there, doubt she's still about, N is still screwing me about, emotionally, more we talk, more I need, tomorrow, do I blank him, or do I kiss him? will he be the first male this Woman has kissed.
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Before, was purely about me on here, but now, is getting oh so complicated, am meeting up with S later, for a coffee, my first real lesbian fancy bit, even though we never really kissed, or anything more, but she has been a fantastic friend. Tomorrow, am meeting with N again for a drink, down at Spitalfields, Spooky that Biatch Sue worked there, doubt she's still about, N is still screwing me about, emotionally, more we talk, more I need, tomorrow, do I blank him, or do I kiss him? will he be the first male this Woman has kissed.
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Tuesday 1 July 2014
01-07-2014
Things are getting more and more confusing for me, am claiming to lesbian, but, N? What about J&C, I can't just leave them, I can't do anything with N till March anyway, would it be mercenary to go with him, knowing full well I can't take anything in, that I have to ensure that J&C are sorted, what am I supposed to do. At the same time N has to ensure everything with K is sorted too, am confused that he is putting things with me, before K?
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Things are getting more and more confusing for me, am claiming to lesbian, but, N? What about J&C, I can't just leave them, I can't do anything with N till March anyway, would it be mercenary to go with him, knowing full well I can't take anything in, that I have to ensure that J&C are sorted, what am I supposed to do. At the same time N has to ensure everything with K is sorted too, am confused that he is putting things with me, before K?
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