27-01-2016
Oh so hating doing my dilating, why, because it reminds me of what am missing, yes could go to Legs or SweetWednesday's, but then, would fail in what am after, as there, they only do sex, shag, fuck. But what do I require, I need a man to make love to me, I did enough shagging during transition, it introduced me to the darker side of men, even before, I never just shagged a woman, I gave her more, so maybe I have a high expectation of men, expect to be treated the same way, but, if I expected to be shagged, I wouldn't still be a virgin, and would of received a name?
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Wednesday 27 January 2016
Friday 22 January 2016
22-01-2016
Things are getting pretty difficult for me now, for oh so long now, have been living a MAJOR lie, am finally realising that am not lesbian, am straight, want a man, but with that, being with J is causing oh so many emotional problems, talking last night made me realise what hell I was putting them through before, when I was cross dressing, but not transitioning, but now, as am not working, don't have the cash to get my own place, I mean, first move might be to move back to parents, but they have made it clear, they don't want me back there, what will I do, I know there is always the option of going on the game, but I don't want that, I need my own place to get my life sorted, to finally complete becoming a woman???
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Things are getting pretty difficult for me now, for oh so long now, have been living a MAJOR lie, am finally realising that am not lesbian, am straight, want a man, but with that, being with J is causing oh so many emotional problems, talking last night made me realise what hell I was putting them through before, when I was cross dressing, but not transitioning, but now, as am not working, don't have the cash to get my own place, I mean, first move might be to move back to parents, but they have made it clear, they don't want me back there, what will I do, I know there is always the option of going on the game, but I don't want that, I need my own place to get my life sorted, to finally complete becoming a woman???
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Wednesday 20 January 2016
20-01-2016
OMG, 19 months now, still awaiting Gender Recognition certificate, from Gender Recognition Council, what other documentation do they require, they have had loads, including documentation from Charing Cross Gender Identity Clinic, I mean to get referred there, you have to be diagnosed as Gender Dismorphic, to get put forward for Gender Re-Assignment Surgery, on the NHS, you have to diagnosed as Gender Dismorphic? Pretty damn obvious.
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OMG, 19 months now, still awaiting Gender Recognition certificate, from Gender Recognition Council, what other documentation do they require, they have had loads, including documentation from Charing Cross Gender Identity Clinic, I mean to get referred there, you have to be diagnosed as Gender Dismorphic, to get put forward for Gender Re-Assignment Surgery, on the NHS, you have to diagnosed as Gender Dismorphic? Pretty damn obvious.
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Sunday 17 January 2016
17-01-2016
Was out at the Vic, again last night, had an awesome night, was P's birthday, 21 again????, She pulled all stops out for her Birthday Party, cabaret was Drag With No Name, brilliant, he had me laughing my head off.
Did loads of dancing with J, was fantastic, felt oh so good, some gay lad came up to me later, claimed I had some awesome moves, managing to swing my arse enough?
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Was out at the Vic, again last night, had an awesome night, was P's birthday, 21 again????, She pulled all stops out for her Birthday Party, cabaret was Drag With No Name, brilliant, he had me laughing my head off.
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Friday 15 January 2016
15-01-2016Just been out to Ted's again last night. Major News, have realised I am not a lesbian, I am definitely Pan. I have and always will enjoy being with women, but I definitely will enjoy being with a guy. Went to Ted's, with the intention of making love to a guy, but the guy's that were there, they weren't after making love, they just wanted a shag, a fuck, and, in of all places the toilets, Were in no way interested in taking me to their place's, or to a room, excuse me, but even I have standards, I've done the dirty sluty part, as a TV, but I'm a woman now, and expect to be treated as such. Other major news, whilst I was there, re-met Elaine, we first met at that wonderful Period, Erotica
thats me, 2011, in the middle, wonderful S far right, about 8-9 girls a day running the First Tgirl bar, at Erotica. Their Management decided, that after 15 years of Erotica, the LGBT Community have needs and desires? the next Tgirl bar in 2013 was even bigger, we even had tables, and had the Cabaret Revue every 2 hours.
That's the Tgirl Bar Crew above, me in the middle, picture to the right, barely 7 months before I was a complete woman, and yes thats S in the Dirndle, and yes she's a woman now too, below, with some of the girls from the Rhino Gentle Mans Club, yes the Strip joint.
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thats me, 2011, in the middle, wonderful S far right, about 8-9 girls a day running the First Tgirl bar, at Erotica. Their Management decided, that after 15 years of Erotica, the LGBT Community have needs and desires? the next Tgirl bar in 2013 was even bigger, we even had tables, and had the Cabaret Revue every 2 hours.
That's the Tgirl Bar Crew above, me in the middle, picture to the right, barely 7 months before I was a complete woman, and yes thats S in the Dirndle, and yes she's a woman now too, below, with some of the girls from the Rhino Gentle Mans Club, yes the Strip joint.
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Wednesday 13 January 2016
13-0102016
Am oh so screwed up again, been chatting with that woman again, A, we had agreed we would only be mates, however, we had to go and say the wrong things to each other, and had to admit, that we had to wait, hormones, for both of us, are going to be oh so complicated, god, I really like that woman, am I being a juvi again, am I falling in love again???
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Am oh so screwed up again, been chatting with that woman again, A, we had agreed we would only be mates, however, we had to go and say the wrong things to each other, and had to admit, that we had to wait, hormones, for both of us, are going to be oh so complicated, god, I really like that woman, am I being a juvi again, am I falling in love again???
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Sunday 10 January 2016
11-01-2016
To think I never considered myself to have heroes, but I one, and he's just past away, RIP David Bowie, I have alway's loved Space Oddity. Released in 69, David Bowie, released from this hell, aged 69. Always loved him, before I released the truth about myself, he was oh so Androgens, I even loved Labrynth. Then, at the begining of my teenage years, he releases Ashes to Ashes???
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To think I never considered myself to have heroes, but I one, and he's just past away, RIP David Bowie, I have alway's loved Space Oddity. Released in 69, David Bowie, released from this hell, aged 69. Always loved him, before I released the truth about myself, he was oh so Androgens, I even loved Labrynth. Then, at the begining of my teenage years, he releases Ashes to Ashes???
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Saturday 9 January 2016
09-01-2016
Things are oh so confusing, for me, at the mo, been chatting with an awesome woman, pre-op, how ever, I can't allow any thing further to happen with her, yes I am attracted to her, however, I am still oh so not set, as in to my sexuality, yes I know I may be Pan, however, until I sleep with a man, or a proper lesbian woman, or even a trans woman, how will I know. But then, I still have to consider J, yes, she will always be a major part of my life, she is my daughters mum, I have loved her, am still attracted to her, but not the way it was before, I guess I still love her, but more emotional than physical, yes I know S is oh so right, in that I should of left her before, but I needed her strength?
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Things are oh so confusing, for me, at the mo, been chatting with an awesome woman, pre-op, how ever, I can't allow any thing further to happen with her, yes I am attracted to her, however, I am still oh so not set, as in to my sexuality, yes I know I may be Pan, however, until I sleep with a man, or a proper lesbian woman, or even a trans woman, how will I know. But then, I still have to consider J, yes, she will always be a major part of my life, she is my daughters mum, I have loved her, am still attracted to her, but not the way it was before, I guess I still love her, but more emotional than physical, yes I know S is oh so right, in that I should of left her before, but I needed her strength?
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Friday 1 January 2016
01-01-2016
First post of the year, spent all day, in bed, recovering from New Year Hangover, hey, had an awesome night, as photo's show, at a friends place, with her and her partners family.
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First post of the year, spent all day, in bed, recovering from New Year Hangover, hey, had an awesome night, as photo's show, at a friends place, with her and her partners family.
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