29-06-2014
Oh my god, what is going on, N, the gent that took me to lunch, on Friday, I can't get him of my mind, he's a guy, I'm a lesbian, I know I had mentioned that he may be contacted, re March, but why am I thinking of him now? This is oh so difficult for me?
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Sunday 29 June 2014
Friday 27 June 2014
28-06-2014
WOW!!! was taken out to lunch yesterday, yes he's fully aware, he dresses occasionally too, but at the same time, as lovely as he is, can't afford to allow anything to happen, as he has oh so much happening in his life at the moment. After we had eaten we went for a drink, and it felt good just walking along, as he's 6'2" tall, we just looked like another couple, and at the same time, even though he told me he fancied me, there was, at no point any pressure to go to bed? this in itself felt oh so good, also he occasionally mentioned how Girly I am, I ain't arguing that point, even I notice how much my everyday actions have changed .
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WOW!!! was taken out to lunch yesterday, yes he's fully aware, he dresses occasionally too, but at the same time, as lovely as he is, can't afford to allow anything to happen, as he has oh so much happening in his life at the moment. After we had eaten we went for a drink, and it felt good just walking along, as he's 6'2" tall, we just looked like another couple, and at the same time, even though he told me he fancied me, there was, at no point any pressure to go to bed? this in itself felt oh so good, also he occasionally mentioned how Girly I am, I ain't arguing that point, even I notice how much my everyday actions have changed .
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Monday 23 June 2014
23-06-2014
OK, so contacted 101, a couple of officers came around to take statement, not a single note was taken, not even my name. They listened to complaint, then decided that it was an internal matter, to be dealt with by M&S, paying no attention to the fact that Transphobic Abuse is illegal, the charge starts with discrimination, and works up from there, are we going to have another Broadwater, before the Police realise exactly how much abuse is out there, if this was to happen, have they any idea how many Trans out there are Ex Forces? How many don't need weapons?
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OK, so contacted 101, a couple of officers came around to take statement, not a single note was taken, not even my name. They listened to complaint, then decided that it was an internal matter, to be dealt with by M&S, paying no attention to the fact that Transphobic Abuse is illegal, the charge starts with discrimination, and works up from there, are we going to have another Broadwater, before the Police realise exactly how much abuse is out there, if this was to happen, have they any idea how many Trans out there are Ex Forces? How many don't need weapons?
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Friday 20 June 2014
20-06-2014
Yesterday, ended up spending the day in a cell, after idiots at local M&S decided that I was a male, and I pushed 2 dummies over, and am supposed to of damaged them, haven't been charged yet, was only released on bail, the 2 coppers that interviewed me seemed to be of opinion, unofficially, that M&S are the ones that should be prosecuted, not I. Am trying to get time to calling 101, to get them to come around so that can I make a statement, in regards to the treatment I received of them, M&S are supposed to of received several awards for their treatment of Diverse Elements, wonder how that would stand if it was made public, the Transphobic World, and all its supporting elements, may be slightly Disgusted with their Heroes????
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Yesterday, ended up spending the day in a cell, after idiots at local M&S decided that I was a male, and I pushed 2 dummies over, and am supposed to of damaged them, haven't been charged yet, was only released on bail, the 2 coppers that interviewed me seemed to be of opinion, unofficially, that M&S are the ones that should be prosecuted, not I. Am trying to get time to calling 101, to get them to come around so that can I make a statement, in regards to the treatment I received of them, M&S are supposed to of received several awards for their treatment of Diverse Elements, wonder how that would stand if it was made public, the Transphobic World, and all its supporting elements, may be slightly Disgusted with their Heroes????
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Wednesday 18 June 2014
18-06-2014
Yes, was with Mr B again yesterday, yes, he did insert a finger, then went ob to insert a dilator, with me screaming blue murder, but, he did admit that I had to get through the Muscle Wall? What have I been saying, yes I know what I have to do, but also proves that the problem's I've been having, are because of all the horses I rode in the Army. reason why it doesn't seem to affect women, is because men, being men, don't really notice any difference between a toned vaginal passage, and a non toned vagina passage, and also the women that rode horses, had been riding them for so long, that it wasn't an over night thing, with them getting toned, below, they alway's just know them to be so?
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Yes, was with Mr B again yesterday, yes, he did insert a finger, then went ob to insert a dilator, with me screaming blue murder, but, he did admit that I had to get through the Muscle Wall? What have I been saying, yes I know what I have to do, but also proves that the problem's I've been having, are because of all the horses I rode in the Army. reason why it doesn't seem to affect women, is because men, being men, don't really notice any difference between a toned vaginal passage, and a non toned vagina passage, and also the women that rode horses, had been riding them for so long, that it wasn't an over night thing, with them getting toned, below, they alway's just know them to be so?
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Thursday 12 June 2014
14-06-2014
had a shower this AM, managed to insert a finger, so thought I may actually be able to Dilate. So, I decided to try later, yes that finger was still entering, but god, was it tight, I managed one finger, tried another, no way, so... I tried the dilation, but got what I was expecting, D'nada. Even after a week, as much as I had hoped I would be relaxed enough, nope, as much as I have had a pooh, will it continue.
This is oh so difficult, being a woman, Tuesday, I will ask Mr B to try and insert a finger, so that he can see, exactly, how tight I really am, this is unbearble.
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had a shower this AM, managed to insert a finger, so thought I may actually be able to Dilate. So, I decided to try later, yes that finger was still entering, but god, was it tight, I managed one finger, tried another, no way, so... I tried the dilation, but got what I was expecting, D'nada. Even after a week, as much as I had hoped I would be relaxed enough, nope, as much as I have had a pooh, will it continue.
This is oh so difficult, being a woman, Tuesday, I will ask Mr B to try and insert a finger, so that he can see, exactly, how tight I really am, this is unbearble.
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Monday 9 June 2014
09-06-2014
Well, am finally back in Chinger's, as and when I dilate later, will try my fingers first, a movement that never failed me in the past? But, but not after any pleasure, yet. as would just tighten me up even more???
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Well, am finally back in Chinger's, as and when I dilate later, will try my fingers first, a movement that never failed me in the past? But, but not after any pleasure, yet. as would just tighten me up even more???
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Saturday 7 June 2014
07-06-2014
Padding is out, Catheter Bag is out, been introduced to my friends, that I have to use 3 times a day, Mr B did an awesome job below, slimmer one, went in OK, larger one a bit more difficult, second dilation is due in an hour, made me realise, exactly how fortunate all my former lovers were, in that I loved foreplay so much, hey, I'm a lesbian.
I also have a toy too, which is actually smaller, but not going to try that yet, I think I may wait till am finished with smaller toy fulltime
time, before anybody thinks am on sexual things, the 2 clear one's, are medical grade dilaters?
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Padding is out, Catheter Bag is out, been introduced to my friends, that I have to use 3 times a day, Mr B did an awesome job below, slimmer one, went in OK, larger one a bit more difficult, second dilation is due in an hour, made me realise, exactly how fortunate all my former lovers were, in that I loved foreplay so much, hey, I'm a lesbian.
I also have a toy too, which is actually smaller, but not going to try that yet, I think I may wait till am finished with smaller toy fulltime
time, before anybody thinks am on sexual things, the 2 clear one's, are medical grade dilaters?
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Wednesday 4 June 2014
05-06-2014
Day 4, feeling better, will always worry about her, while I am away. Admittedly I am not innocent, I have considered an affair, but isn't so easy finding another lesbian, if it was a guy I wanted, that would be easy, but then, I was never easy, always been an awkward Biatch??
14:30 Been feeling better, not so stupidly Hormonal. Here, the new me, no difference I know, but Major changes to follow?
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Day 4, feeling better, will always worry about her, while I am away. Admittedly I am not innocent, I have considered an affair, but isn't so easy finding another lesbian, if it was a guy I wanted, that would be easy, but then, I was never easy, always been an awkward Biatch??
14:30 Been feeling better, not so stupidly Hormonal. Here, the new me, no difference I know, but Major changes to follow?
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04-06-2014
Been 2 day's, Mr B has been in again, right labia is slightly swollen, but apart from that, all looking OK. Me, well that's a different matter, am oh so scared, that a certain woman is going to leave me, I know her thinking is more Pan than anything else, she reckons A, but she was raised with hetero thinking, so can only assume she will go and grab a guy, god am oh so confused?
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Been 2 day's, Mr B has been in again, right labia is slightly swollen, but apart from that, all looking OK. Me, well that's a different matter, am oh so scared, that a certain woman is going to leave me, I know her thinking is more Pan than anything else, she reckons A, but she was raised with hetero thinking, so can only assume she will go and grab a guy, god am oh so confused?
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Tuesday 3 June 2014
03-06-2014
BIG NEWS!! have just seen my brand new Genetalia, swollen to hell, no pain, just waiting for Morphine pump to be removed, Drain's been taken out, explained dribbles of blood on front, now wearing netting pants, and maternity pads, legs are working fine, just have to take bag with me where ever I go, am feeling oh so free now.
22:30 Things are getting weird, am I lesbian, if so, then why do I consider males, and also practice the moves, am getting oh so confused with myself, also eye's are getting worse, maybe I'll need full time glasses some time.
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BIG NEWS!! have just seen my brand new Genetalia, swollen to hell, no pain, just waiting for Morphine pump to be removed, Drain's been taken out, explained dribbles of blood on front, now wearing netting pants, and maternity pads, legs are working fine, just have to take bag with me where ever I go, am feeling oh so free now.
22:30 Things are getting weird, am I lesbian, if so, then why do I consider males, and also practice the moves, am getting oh so confused with myself, also eye's are getting worse, maybe I'll need full time glasses some time.
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Sunday 1 June 2014
02-06-2014
Well, it is now 06:00, 02-06, all on course, just had enema, Oh so need a Coffee? All on course??
Just seen post left by R, that I met in the supermarket on Saturday, Thank you, thought I would add here, as is lovely:
Hey Amanda, it was lovely to meet you today in Tesco, I wish you all the best for tmrw, U are so courageous and I admire you for following your heart and doing what Is right for you, everything will be fine and you will be happy. So refreshing to meet someone Who is doing what is right for them regardless of what others might sat or think. So brave and commendable, stay true to yourself, and I wish u the best of luck to you and it family. Take Care, keep in touch, R. Xx
Is 12:50 now, been down to Theatre, back now, Sans nasty bits, back in room 2 mins, one of nurses comes in with a card for me, to be delivered Post Op, have had loads messages of support, I don't believe this, is all to unreal, maybe I am a nice person?
Also today, I can put this now as she has read it, another friend, from Pre-Army day's, nipped into town by her, went to a Florists, to send me some flowers, yet again I was crying, she's knows I love her, she's been a complete mate, a fantastic complete friend.
Hey Amanda, it was lovely to meet you today in Tesco, I wish you all the best for tmrw, U are so courageous and I admire you for following your heart and doing what Is right for you, everything will be fine and you will be happy. So refreshing to meet someone Who is doing what is right for them regardless of what others might sat or think. So brave and commendable, stay true to yourself, and I wish u the best of luck to you and it family. Take Care, keep in touch, R. Xx
Is 12:50 now, been down to Theatre, back now, Sans nasty bits, back in room 2 mins, one of nurses comes in with a card for me, to be delivered Post Op, have had loads messages of support, I don't believe this, is all to unreal, maybe I am a nice person?
Also today, I can put this now as she has read it, another friend, from Pre-Army day's, nipped into town by her, went to a Florists, to send me some flowers, yet again I was crying, she's knows I love her, she's been a complete mate, a fantastic complete friend.
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