27-11-2013
Don't ask me why, but have just been having some weird thought's, going back to when I was in the Army, as much as I tried, and succeeded at keeping everything concealed, surely somebody had an idea, there was that in my hyper confidential, that I was not to go NI, surely some body had an idea, as they did say, was for emotional reasons, wasn't I considered strong enough, emotionaly?
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Wednesday 27 November 2013
Sunday 24 November 2013
24-11-2013
This is getting unbelievable, as much as I love J, her non-sexuality, is screwing me mentality. I would oh so much her to just give me a hug, a look. But is oh so difficult,cyes would be oh easy to jump into some guy's bed, but I don't want that do I. What I want, need, is J, I don't want to lose her, I need her, but at the same time, I don't want, need a man. I just want that one woman, that has been stood by me, for the last 12 years, that stood by me, as I became the woman I am today. But, at the same time, I am being screwed up, by the waiting game, just waiting for a date, to even get that initial consultation, by the Surgeon. If he even saw me at his private clinic would be no problem, that's even closer to the family, than CX. But hey, I guess the waiting game is part of the process, but is oh so difficult, I am getting oh so much more tempted to use those knives of mine, and just chop that bit off, but that would mean bleeding to death, and losing the flesh required to construct the required?
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This is getting unbelievable, as much as I love J, her non-sexuality, is screwing me mentality. I would oh so much her to just give me a hug, a look. But is oh so difficult,cyes would be oh easy to jump into some guy's bed, but I don't want that do I. What I want, need, is J, I don't want to lose her, I need her, but at the same time, I don't want, need a man. I just want that one woman, that has been stood by me, for the last 12 years, that stood by me, as I became the woman I am today. But, at the same time, I am being screwed up, by the waiting game, just waiting for a date, to even get that initial consultation, by the Surgeon. If he even saw me at his private clinic would be no problem, that's even closer to the family, than CX. But hey, I guess the waiting game is part of the process, but is oh so difficult, I am getting oh so much more tempted to use those knives of mine, and just chop that bit off, but that would mean bleeding to death, and losing the flesh required to construct the required?
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Sunday 17 November 2013
17-11-2013
So, Mr Boris Johnson, supposed Mayor of London, supposed Chief of Metropolitan Police, it may be illegal in UK to be Transphobic, but is OK in London, as it's not in Public Interest. Really, well, we shall see, as I am about to speak to Police Complaints, and as the Metropolitans Chief, You shall also be investigated, as you were informed of the actions, of your juniors, but refused to take any action. Ergo Transphobic?
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So, Mr Boris Johnson, supposed Mayor of London, supposed Chief of Metropolitan Police, it may be illegal in UK to be Transphobic, but is OK in London, as it's not in Public Interest. Really, well, we shall see, as I am about to speak to Police Complaints, and as the Metropolitans Chief, You shall also be investigated, as you were informed of the actions, of your juniors, but refused to take any action. Ergo Transphobic?
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Thursday 14 November 2013
14-11-2013
It's been a weird day today, went up to Olympic Park, top see about Veladrome, and opening conditions. While I was on the bus, getting there, Bus Driver turned around, and said how attractive I was, then asked where I lived, had to tell him, am living with J though.
Was on FB, chatting to a contact from down in Devon, and he admitted I was a sexy looking woman, but then he did admit, that he was only telling me because he knew I wouldn't be interested in him, only interested in women.
But other things are Screwing me up, am getting oh so hormonal at times, this is really scaring me now.
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It's been a weird day today, went up to Olympic Park, top see about Veladrome, and opening conditions. While I was on the bus, getting there, Bus Driver turned around, and said how attractive I was, then asked where I lived, had to tell him, am living with J though.
Was on FB, chatting to a contact from down in Devon, and he admitted I was a sexy looking woman, but then he did admit, that he was only telling me because he knew I wouldn't be interested in him, only interested in women.
But other things are Screwing me up, am getting oh so hormonal at times, this is really scaring me now.
WARNING: Any institution or person using this site or any of its associated sites for study or projects - You do not have my permission to use any of my profile or pictures in any form or forum both current or future. If you have or do, it will be considered a serious violation of my privacy and will be subject to legal ramifications.
Monday 11 November 2013
11-11-2013
Attended Remembrance again yesterday, met up with Toffee again, also saw Andy, that I haven't seen since '94, and also CJ, CJ was on attachment anyway after I got back in '93, so barely saw him after amalgamation, but still was good. Did march past, then immediate RV at the Sherlock Holmes, well J was there wasn't she. Was only supposed to be a quick one for us, but..........
If your looking on BBC Iplayer, you'll see me at 1.39, while its still on there.
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Attended Remembrance again yesterday, met up with Toffee again, also saw Andy, that I haven't seen since '94, and also CJ, CJ was on attachment anyway after I got back in '93, so barely saw him after amalgamation, but still was good. Did march past, then immediate RV at the Sherlock Holmes, well J was there wasn't she. Was only supposed to be a quick one for us, but..........
If your looking on BBC Iplayer, you'll see me at 1.39, while its still on there.
WARNING: Any institution or person using this site or any of its associated sites for study or projects - You do not have my permission to use any of my profile or pictures in any form or forum both current or future. If you have or do, it will be considered a serious violation of my privacy and will be subject to legal ramifications.
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